Hey it's ya girl Letti. Apparently people still look up my website even if I don't post on it or share it anywhere, so I feel like I should write something on here. I feel like posting normal blogs betrays the way I actually feel about how life is going. I still feel weird, like … Continue reading Repression
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I don’t know what I’m doing
I don't know why I'm writing this because I don't really have anything to say. I feel like I should use my own website more, but since I'm not sharing the posts anymore (it's not like I can tell my entire social media network I just tried to kill myself), I don't expect anyone to … Continue reading I don’t know what I’m doing
Pain
I know where my kidneys and my liver are because I can feel them stinging. I had bloods taken for a liver function panel recently but I don't know the results yet. I was poked so much when I was in the hospital that I was able to sit up when getting blood drawn and … Continue reading Pain
I got a letter about myself
A couple of details are wrong but they always are in these things.
You do not want to overdose.
I said at the end of my last post that the reasons I gave for not killing myself were bollocks. Aside from the not having an accessible method that won't end terribly part. That was true, I did something I had access to doing and it did, in fact, end terribly. There is very frank talk … Continue reading You do not want to overdose.
Reasons not to kill myself this week
It's just been Christmas and that kind of ruins everything. It's not fair on my husband, who just married me after 8 entire years of keeping me alive. My dog won't understand why I didn't wake up/ vanished. Will might not know how to take care of Joop properly. Will won't understand that I can … Continue reading Reasons not to kill myself this week
My wildest fantasy
There's a screenshot of a Tumblr post that's been going around for a few years now. I'm sure you've all seen it. I saw it again recently, and it made me think about my own version. As usual, I have some tweaks. So, this is my wildest fantasy: I'm still married to Will and … Continue reading My wildest fantasy
I can’t think of any good titles at the moment
Apparently my last post was the 200th on this blog. Anyway, here are some pictures of recent things. I feel like there's a lot going on even though I'm simultaneously not doing very much day to day. Had a couple of people over to watch horror films with drinks last week and that was really … Continue reading I can’t think of any good titles at the moment
I’m awake at a ridiculous time in the morning
Hello it's 5am and for some reason I can't fall asleep. As a result I will probably be asleep during the day at an inconvenient time. I've decided I may as well write about my new medical bracelet. I should specify that this is not a sponsored post, just me rambling about a thing at … Continue reading I’m awake at a ridiculous time in the morning
I’m not coping
I'm not sure why I'm writing this really but I know I can't sleep tonight. I can't relax at all, actually.I've hit a real low point again recently. I can't get past it. I don't know if people realise that tiny things they do can have such a compounding negative effect on you. But even … Continue reading I’m not coping