Spooky season
Hello! We recently celebrated our eighth wedding anniversary, and have been together for 16 years in total! I can’t believe how much time has flown by.
General life stuff
We had such a nice anniversary, eating candy and watching Halloweentown. We also successfully partook in leaving a bowl of candy outside for neighbourhood children! It was all just very festive and nice.
It’s also been 5 years since Freya died and it hurts so much. I see her around the house a lot. But as I always say, she’s not tangible anymore and it sucks. I still love her and Joop so much. Had to take some time to hold her urn and just cry and cry. She lived for 12 years, but one day she’ll have been dead for 12 years, and that freaks me out.
I love my A5 Filofax and I have my perfect purple Malden cover for it. But something about managing dated things in it has gone out the window lately. I do go through phases of using a physical planner less and using my Capacities app more, and vice versa. But I crave something about a bound planner at the moment.
The good news is that Filofaxes are versatile and so I’m not completely abandoning it; it has several other tabbed sections in it other than the diary. And the Filofax I had before that is a sort of loose leaf notebook for more niche issues.
I wasn’t finding any planner refills for 2027 that satisfied me. So I ended up taking a leap and getting a Hobonichi Weeks. I would’ve gone for a larger A5 size, but I would very rarely use the page-per-day sections they come with. Maybe for days with a lot on, I can just use an undated Filofax page. But the good news about the “wallet-size” Weeks is that it will fit in my usual daily handbag, which didn’t fit the Filofax.
I’m finding it a bit strange of a size to hold onto, I have small hands but still feels like I can’t get much of a grip on the planner, lol. I’m also trying to use planner stamps in it instead of stickers, but I’m so bad at it. Anyway, I can start using it from Nov 30th instead of finishing the year in my Filofax. I’ve already been writing various things ahead in it because I am like this.
Please enjoy terrible graphics I make for fun.
One recent hobby project was making collages of a bunch of features I’d want in my dream house, I even found Barbie font to put my own name and colours in.
But when I finally uploaded it to Instagram, guess what! It flagged it an an AI-generated post! And I was pretty fucking offended. The post content isn’t really anything important, but as an Autistic person who is weirdly particular with my ambitions, I resent the implication that I need AI to think for me.
The only thing I can think of is that MAYBE having backgrounds removed from some objects is what added the signal. But that sucks because cutting out an object is not the same as fabricating something with AI. And my other thought is that some of the images provided by Canva’s library could be AI-generated, but that would suck considering I pay money for Canva Pro and that’s not what I should be getting in return. One house image on my cover does look artificial but I’m hoping it’s just an old-fashioned render done by the author and not AI. But who fucking knows.
But yes, to clarify, no, I did not use any AI in this, I do not use AI to generate any content. I think Instagram in general is probably being a bit overzealous with the implementation of the tag. Photos of Angela Sant’Albano getting an award were marked AI generated in my feed even though she definitely did get the award! She probably just hit the button to automatically sort the lighting and the colour correction, which I also do with photos, so they look less flat, but I’m guessing that also makes Instagram think things are AI. Anyway. I don’t know. It’s annoying, but enjoy my dumb project.
Halloween Fallout!
I finished the season and unlocked a bunch of cool stuff. So it’s time for another Fallout break. I’ll just try and keep an eye on the Atomic Shop so I can put hideous digital things in my hideous digital house. I do love the Halloween event, even though having to be on a public server and visit strangers’ camps can be stressful due to numerous variables.
The next season should bring an update that lets us bring our pets into the wild with us, like with Dogmeat in FO4. I wish we could do that with camp allies too; I remember having a mod for FO4 so I could have both Hancock and Dogmeat running around with me. Having both Freya and Beckett would be fun. Sometimes Beckett does bug out and run around in the world anyway, but he’s not meant to do that.
I see a lot of people are concerned about server connectivity and lag with everyone having pets with them. I do also wonder how that’s gonna work; I don’t use public servers very often but when I do, everything is so much laggier, so I assume it will make a difference but I’m not sure what the solution is.
Tormented Souls
Vily bought me Tormented Souls (along with Alan Wake, which I haven’t started yet), a game I’ve been intending to try for a few years. It very much wears its influences on its sleeves in regards to Silent Hill, Resident Evil, and old-timey fixed-camera games, much like Post Trauma, although I think this does it better, mainly because the game runs better for me lol.
I’m enjoying running around trying to solve stuff (when I’m not confused or frustrated) but man, I wasn’t expecting to be so afraid of the monsters! I have definitely made some noises while playing this. I kind of want to be playing it more, but I’m still streaming only one day a week at the moment because there aren’t enough hours in the day for all the stuff I need to do.
Phasmophobia
Vix and me played a bit of Phasmophobia recently. They’ve made the dead bodies horrible now! I know I should play more of this game, because it’s one of my favourite games of all time, but I’m still kind of burnt-out on it from doing so much of it.
Red Dead Redemption + Undead Nightmare
Well, I finally saw the infamous ending of RDR1. Because I’d already seen Arthur’s ending in the prequel and been truly devastated by that, I don’t think it hit me as hard as it hit everyone else back in the day. But it sure was rough. I got to the epilogue and there are probably a few more things I can do as Jack. I also started a save of Undead Nightmare, which has been fun although sometimes difficult.
Although I technically still have saves running in both RDR1 and RDR2, I probably need a bit of a break from them. I like to think I’ll finish Undead Nightmare but maybe it won’t be soon. These games took a lot out of me mentally.
So that’s about it for now! I turn 37 soon and am not really prepared, but I suppose I never am. And then it’s Christmas again even though I’m still mentally three Christmases ago.
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