I don't know why I'm writing this because I don't really have anything to say. I feel like I should use my own website more, but since I'm not sharing the posts anymore (it's not like I can tell my entire social media network I just tried to kill myself), I don't expect anyone to … Continue reading I don’t know what I’m doing
I know where my kidneys and my liver are because I can feel them stinging. I had bloods taken for a liver function panel recently but I don't know the results yet. I was poked so much when I was in the hospital that I was able to sit up when getting blood drawn and … Continue reading Pain
A couple of details are wrong but they always are in these things.
I said at the end of my last post that the reasons I gave for not killing myself were bollocks. Aside from the not having an accessible method that won't end terribly part. That was true, I did something I had access to doing and it did, in fact, end terribly. There is very frank talk … Continue reading You do not want to overdose.
It's just been Christmas and that kind of ruins everything. It's not fair on my husband, who just married me after 8 entire years of keeping me alive. My dog won't understand why I didn't wake up/ vanished. Will might not know how to take care of Joop properly. Will won't understand that I can … Continue reading Reasons not to kill myself this week
There's a screenshot of a Tumblr post that's been going around for a few years now. I'm sure you've all seen it. I saw it again recently, and it made me think about my own version. As usual, I have some tweaks. So, this is my wildest fantasy: I'm still married to Will and … Continue reading My wildest fantasy
Apparently my last post was the 200th on this blog. Anyway, here are some pictures of recent things. I feel like there's a lot going on even though I'm simultaneously not doing very much day to day. Had a couple of people over to watch horror films with drinks last week and that was really … Continue reading I can’t think of any good titles at the moment
Hello it's 5am and for some reason I can't fall asleep. As a result I will probably be asleep during the day at an inconvenient time. I've decided I may as well write about my new medical bracelet. I should specify that this is not a sponsored post, just me rambling about a thing at … Continue reading I’m awake at a ridiculous time in the morning
I'm not sure why I'm writing this really but I know I can't sleep tonight. I can't relax at all, actually.I've hit a real low point again recently. I can't get past it. I don't know if people realise that tiny things they do can have such a compounding negative effect on you. But even … Continue reading I’m not coping
via 19 Things Before 2019 "19 Things Before 2019" is one of my most visited posts by people coming from Google or other searches. I see its name so often in my stats and I realised I should really reflect on the things I aimed to do, because it's apparent that I'm really not going … Continue reading Reflecting on my 19 Things Before 2019 | 20 in 2020?