I went to the hospital yesterday and had another dose of migraine Botox. I felt it wearing off around a month ago, meaning that I need to get doses every other month, as my previous one was in December. My headaches were getting longer and more severe around February 18th, and things like nausea and … Continue reading My 3rd migraine Botox
I've been meaning to write this post since October, but as usual, life got in the way. To cut to the chase, I want to tell you about something alarmingly simple called Plum. Now, it's not a secret that my financial situation is not amazing. I live on Disability Living Allowance, and while my … Continue reading How an app helped to pay for my wedding
I thought I was getting better but I'm not. I knew I'd take a dip again before and during March but I'm feeling really bad right now. I'm considering suicide again. I'm not overdosing for anybody. I went through hell in that hospital and if anybody wants me to experience that again they can just … Continue reading I’m losing myself
Hey it's ya girl Letti. Apparently people still look up my website even if I don't post on it or share it anywhere, so I feel like I should write something on here. I feel like posting normal blogs betrays the way I actually feel about how life is going. I still feel weird, like … Continue reading Repression
I don't know why I'm writing this because I don't really have anything to say. I feel like I should use my own website more, but since I'm not sharing the posts anymore (it's not like I can tell my entire social media network I just tried to kill myself), I don't expect anyone to … Continue reading I don’t know what I’m doing
I know where my kidneys and my liver are because I can feel them stinging. I had bloods taken for a liver function panel recently but I don't know the results yet. I was poked so much when I was in the hospital that I was able to sit up when getting blood drawn and … Continue reading Pain
A couple of details are wrong but they always are in these things.
I said at the end of my last post that the reasons I gave for not killing myself were bollocks. Aside from the not having an accessible method that won't end terribly part. That was true, I did something I had access to doing and it did, in fact, end terribly. There is very frank talk … Continue reading You do not want to overdose.
It's just been Christmas and that kind of ruins everything. It's not fair on my husband, who just married me after 8 entire years of keeping me alive. My dog won't understand why I didn't wake up/ vanished. Will might not know how to take care of Joop properly. Will won't understand that I can … Continue reading Reasons not to kill myself this week
There's a screenshot of a Tumblr post that's been going around for a few years now. I'm sure you've all seen it. I saw it again recently, and it made me think about my own version. As usual, I have some tweaks. So, this is my wildest fantasy: I'm still married to Will and … Continue reading My wildest fantasy